Unless you’re super popular or have massive self-esteem, do you just sit there and think that you have no friends and you’re just left out in the community you’re in? The people you consider ‘friends’, the people who you think you get on well with, they seem to have other people to turn to and consider as friends, and you’re just left out…and you’re always the one who is alone. I do constantly. I just think nobody regards me as the way that I regard them as. I’m just an acquaintance. I’m just a classmate. I’m not a good friend. I know I can be a bit of a cow and all, but that’s just my nature, I guess. Everyone has good points and bad points about themselves, right? I don’t think people know how hurtful it is to me. Sometimes I wish I can just hide myself away from the world and just forget about it.

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Anyway, going to the subject of the title, today was my last day of school for this year! Woot! Too bad I only have six weeks worth of holidays. UK education sucks D: So, after school (’early dismissal’ - basically I only had five lessons today instead of seven) I went to my local nail bar to get my nails painted. It was called something like USA Style Top Nails or something, and as expected,  Viet people owned it hahaha. I got them painted black with an orange and silver design (I know it sounds like my nails had a pumpkin with bling on it or something lolno) Picture will come soon!

Anyway, on Friday I will be departing for Vietnam for two weeks, and then to Hong Kong for a week. I haven’t been to Vietnam since I was five and I have never been to Hong Kong. Oh and what makes it worse is my poor level of Vietnamese - at least I know the rude words. So ya, I won’t be blogging for three weeks or so.And I know how boring this terrible layout is getting, so I’ll update the site with a new layout soon (maybe ‘header’ would be more appropriate, since the basic site layout stays the same haha). And I’ll be more active, so maybe I’ll join an MB or something dunno, you show me an MB, I’ll join. ;)~ 

Lol some people are just so ridiculous.

Today we got our rooms to stay in at night during our stay in Normandy. (We stay there for three nights). I get some of my friends, good good, and other people that I actually hate. (Hate is a strong word, I know, but these people are slobby and irk me SO MUCH)

But its okay I guess, if you consider the amount of trouble - three hours, in fact- my teacher had to use to allocate people to their rooms, plus it is only three days, after all - but some peoples’ reactions were…crazy.

Girls in other classes were in just floods of tears because of the rooms they would stay in - goodness sake, its only for three days lol :K

PLUSPLUSPLUSPLUS if I uploaded some of my CGs/vexels on Thundering, would you use them? Ty ;3

Is awful. I am revising so much for my end of year exams - its awful. My teachers at my school claims its nothing serious, yet we have to follow normal exam procedures and its going to affect my end-of-year report card. T~T

Therefore, I have decided I will only concentrate on a few exams and the rest I wont care. I am going to concentrate on:

• Maths (because my teacher hates me)
• Science (because the teacher has high expectations)
• RE (because we have learnt nothing in the year)
• German (because its hard)
• French (argh its awful)
• Geography  (I hate the teacher)

Do you think that’s a good idea? Anyway, we’re (my class and I) going to Normandy, France in the beginning of July and yet I am really excited yet nervous. There’s already so much drama! Basically, the teacher is going to organise what rooms we are allocated to and who we are sharing it. She told us to write it down on a small sheet of paper from top priority to least, and so I did. But it did cause alot of commotion among other classmates.

This girl who I will call Ree organised a list of who should write whom down in the list for all her ‘friends’. She told them all but they didnt seem to listen to her and they wrote who they wanted to share the room with. When Ree found out about this, she got really pissed off and started ranting to her ‘friends’. They returned her comments by criticising her and this argument went on for about forty-five minutes. Then it ended in tears, with Ree storming off and sobbing.

I think my class is really bitchy and I hate this group. What would you do if you were in Ree’s position?

Anyway, my closet consists solely of Lazy Oaf T-Shirts and skinny jeans so I have no idea what to pack for Normandy. Should I buy some new clothes, even though Normandy’s weather is similar to the dreary UK’s? After all, July does tend to get hotter.

This issue is rather personal between my friends and myself, but I’m typing it here right now, since this really frustrates me about how ridiculous it is getting and I was wondering what you would do about this.

I don’t really want to talk about it but I can tell you that it involves harrassment and fighting over the Internet. Like yesterday, this girl who we’ll call Vera decides to contact me by MSN, starting with ‘Happy fricking Birthday’ and then ranting about what my friends and I did to her. I then honestly apologise and she doesn’t take it. Then she goes on MySpace (treating it like a mass weapon of destruction) and posting bulletins, calling me and my friends tw*ts. Real nice - don’t you agree?

How pathetic can you get? I’ve received racism over the Internet and I know this is stupid.

She still is harassing people ranting about it today. She then moans that we blanked her, but she made no effort to start conversation herself! It was yesterday’s news and I think it’s going to continue like this for a long time.

I don’t like her but I really want to stop it because it’s irritating me and I hate these kind of attacks. What would you do?

Edit: I am going to mark if I’ve fulfilled the resolutions or not I think I’ve done quite well, don’t you think? Haha

I am working on a new layout and its going to be a little ridiculous because I have lost all of my small amount of imagination. I hope you like rubber duck vexels! lol

Anyway apart from that, I am going to update since I have time to update my blog but not enough to code a new layout bleh. I am taking an idea from Sophie of (Chinese-Voodoo) here and I am going to do some weekly resolutions (thanks for the idea Sophie :D):

1. Stop swearing altogether. If that fails, try to stop swearing in English, as I tend to swear in English more (yes my Vietnamese vocabulary is mostly composed of rude words, I am ashamed to say haha) FAIL (I swore the day after I wrote this)

2. Stop spending money. FAIL (I spent it on an album :P)

3. Stop moaning and thinking about how expensive (Japanese) online shops because thats just going to tempt me to spend money.

4. Read Northern Lights or After The First Death if Amazon sends it to me in the week (its going dusty on my bookshelf) (I’ve started reading After the First Death)

5. Behave at my cousins wedding and stop moaning about how its ruined my weekend FAIL (They put me on the kid’s table -.-)

6. Don’t leave my homework to 11pm the day before its due (particularly Materials Tech, bleh)

I think that’s a good list. Whether I fulfill it is another question.

Urgh, this layout is getting annoying. I will change it by using a CG I made months ago as the header. Problem is that I don’t know how to arrange the layout. Any suggestions? Anyway, I promise to change it. A winter layout in the middle of spring isn’t really appropriate, is it?

Anyway, I was in a history lesson today and this girl, leaves her exercise book on my desk. Thinking she was forgetful, I tried to be helpful (for once) and tried to give it to her. She got really annoyed as I think she thought I was getting annoyed (even though I wasn’t actually angry but trying to be helpful), snatched the book and slapped it onto the dirty floor! It didn’t really matter though, because our history teacher was away somewhere which I don’t know, but I’m just wondering where does she go because we never actually have proper history lessons anymore.

What do you think I did to upset this girl? I don’t really understand and I found it kind of upsetting, as I was only trying to help and I think a rejection of my help is quite insulting since I never actually do that. Sigh.

Girl I hate dislike says to me on Friday, “Kimberly, why are you so butterz (slang for ugly)?”

Me: Shut up.

I don’t think people know the difference between a joke and an insult, so they? :/

Event Number Two:

Teacher, “Alright everybody goes into pairs.”

-Everybody gets a partner except me :(-

I feel like I have no friends in my class.  How would you deal with others?

Site still on open hiatus.

DON’T DELETE ME AFFIES GIVE ME A WARNING AT LEAST

It’s midnight now so yeah.

As I am busy with tests and stuff (half of my academic year has passed) and I am having the most horrible January, I am putting this site on open hiatus.

I’ll still blog.

Affies, bear with me!

DO NOT DELETE ME. PLEASE. I go on this site everyday to check up on it so if you’re doing an affie check, please give me a warning.

Do you know people who are apparently your friends but genuinely not? I have one.

She’s a horrible person. She excludes me all the time and gossips about me (I overhear her).

I just feel really upset now.

It just goes to show that you can’t really trust others.

How can I deal with people like her?

British weather is HORRIBLE.  Just this afternoon as I was walking to my mum’s car (my mum feels that I can’t go by public transport yet :/) it was raining heavily and my wimpy umbrella from Superdrug (yes there is a shop called Superdrug) couldn’t handle it.

Therefore, all of my school books are soaked. Oh shit. And as soon as I got into the car, it stopped raining!

The luck.

And yes, I wish we had Australian weather, so it wouldn’t soak my books.

Or at least a school that is more lazy.